A Golden Heart

Probably every wish for a mother is that her children will grow to be caring, loving, sharing, remorseful people. We do all we can to try to teach them this, even if our examples are not always acceptable. Judging others for being different, or looking a certain way is a down fall I have and don't want that to personify Sawyers judgement. I try my best to keep my opinions to myself around him and from what I have witnessed in him, I must be doing it well. I am so proud of the little man that he is becoming and hope with each growing day, he will not grow out of that, but grow more into it, and be a big person, continuing to have the love for people and the consideration for others that he already has.

Yesterday, Sawyer and I went shopping in the morning. We were in Jysk and Sawyer turned around, thinking it was me, ran right into a elderly lady with a cane. Holding onto her cane, he slowly looked up and saw it was not me. Instead of just running away from her, he looked up at her and said "oh sorry lady, I thought you were my mommy". I was awestruck that a 3 year old would first think of saying sorry before just running away. I smiled at the lady and said sorry to her also. She said "don't be sorry, what a nice little boy". My first thought was "yes he is".....and second thought was "ok I am not THAT old for him to mistake me for a 80 year old lady with a cane". hahahahahaha. The day was not over yet..........

We headed over for lunch to Mcdonalds. Sawyer followed the rules, which are eat then play. After we were done eating, we headed into the play area. (I can't eat my big mac in there cause it smells like 4 week old kid feet and wet dog, which could quite possibly just be the smell of "meat" from the burgers) but with that thought aside, he went to play. Minutes later returned to where I was sitting and asked if he could go ask that girl at the next table to play. I told him if her mom says yes then it was ok. The little girl was about 4ish, unfortunate looking, with big thick glasses, a little on the chubby side, and wearing a tutu. Sawyer approached their table and I out his mouth said..."hey you wanna play tag? Your it". They ran off together as if knowing each other a life time. They were on the play structure together and I heard him say...."hey i like your glasses and your dress". It was a proud moment, but also one of those moments where I grabbed for my phone to pretend to talk to someone so it would not appear I was laughing alone. God bless his heart!!! He gathered up all the little troops in the play area and administered a game of hide and seek and tag. I watched them play, not mattering to any of those kids if they knew each other, fat, skinny, far sighted or not, they could all play together. With all the new age and rage of kids entertainment these days, it is satisfying to know that what still ties us all together is a good old fashion, age old game of tag!!!!

16 things about me....

1. Sometimes I drink beer and Clamto juice at the same time!!!!! I enjoy it. It's actually called "Chelata". So really it's very classy.

2. I love to make my son play school, cause Crystal is all grown up now. Next....I will play office with him, but think he is still to young to understand AUTOPAC.

3. When I am lonely (which is quite often), I dance....alone....in my living room.

4. My career dream is to be a flight attendant. I really want to ask people if they want Coffee, Tea or something cold to drink and hand out those warm face cloths with the tonges.

5. After renovating or painting a room, i walk in and out and in and out and in and out...of that room, looking at it.

6. My dream man is Adam Sandler. He had me at "red hooded Sweeeeeeeaaaat shirt". One day I will find my Adam Sandler and he will love dancing with me in my living room. I just know it.

7. My worst, and most painful fear in life is losing my parents.

8. My biggest worry in life is if I have offended someone. Sometimes when I think I am being really funny, I get carried away.

9. I like to wear no underwear. Try it...I know you want to.

10. One place I would love to visit is Sau Paulo Brazil. Maybe the brazilians there don't hurt as bad

11. I love the smell of my parents house. It smells like dove soap. And yet, I hate dove soap.

12. My son has really stinky feet but I have to smell them everytime I take his socks off. I am really not sure why.

13. I still have a urge to stick my tongue to metal in the winter time, just to see what happens.

14. I want a little girl

15. If I won a million dollars, I would do work with the elderly. Just visiting them and taking them out on field trips. Not changing their depends or anything.

16. I am most thankful in life that I was born to who I was, raised in the Country I was, and am who I am. Take it or leave it!!!!!

Jack and The Bean Stock

Have you ever really payed attention to this story....no i mean REALLY payed attention....

The other night while watching Max and Ruby with Sawyer, the story of Jack and the Bean stock was told. Sawyer found this story very intriguing. He asked lots of questions and as I told it to him a new meaning, new application, new hope, overwhelmed me.

Well you see Jack and his family had no food in their cupboards. They had only 3 coins. Jack's mother sent him to the market with these 3 coins and with his favorite toy to buy some food. With those 3 coins, Jack could purchase enough for one meal. When he arrived at the store, taking along his favorite stuff toy, he look around at all the fruits and vegetables that he could purchase for just ONE meal. The store clerk approached him with a offer. He said "hello Jack, i will take your 3 coins and you favorite toy in exchange for 3 magic beans" Jack was extremely apprehensive. He looked down in his hand at his 3 coins, his stuff FAVORITE toy and thought...Ummmmmm, well....and asked "are these really magic?" Store clerk replied "oh why yes, you have to trust me young Jack. These are magic, purchase them and you will see" So Jack being young and having more trust than us adults, accepted the store clerks offer. Off he went on his way home.

Excited to show his mom his purchase, he raced inside. She immediately cried out. "what? you waisted our only 3 coins on 3 silly magic beans?" She stomped out side and threw them into the garden. Well during the night, Jack heard a horrific noise. He jumped out of his bed and looked outside. In the garden grew a gigantic plant, a bean stock none the less. He headed out there to take a closer look. This stock was so high he could not see the end. He left his mom a note that said "mom, do not worry about me. I've gone to climb the magic bean stock. Be back in time for DINNER."

Jack climbed and climbed and climbed and climbed. When he reached past the clouds, he saw an amazing sight. Fruits, vegetables, all the staples of life.....and even the FAVORITE stuffed toy he traded in to get those magic beans.

See Jack trusted. Took a risk. With this, great treasures came to him and his family.

Now as I retold this story to Sawyer, I applied to our lives. Told him that if we trust in God and give him our 3 coins, He too will provide for us 3 magic beans. He does and he has!!! I made a promise to Sawyer that night. Promised him that he will know God's love.

Please pray for Sawyer and I as we look for a church to attend in the next year.

Psalm 13 5
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord for he has been good to me.

SILENCE OF THE ......HAM'S?!?!?!?!?!

Been a while since I've shadowed the blogging world. I apologize for that, but we have been busy enjoying life.....which brings me to....

Sawyer is a bright little boy that has way more going for him than good looks and a great personality. He is also a great artist, inventor and comedian. He has discovered a new craze in art.....bologne art. One of his very own master pieces, or maybe rather "masker pieces", is "THE SILENCE OF THE HAM'S MASK". It's a face mask and I do believe that keeping this mask on the face PROMOTES, achene, oily pores, black heads, and facial odor, rather than preventing. For all of us who got to witness the introduction to his new invention and master piece, it promoted some awesome laughter. I wouldn't try this mask at home folks. I don't believe it will be the new wave in anti aging. But I guess you never know...ain't most anti aging gimmicks BOLOGNE anyway?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sawyer loves the little children, all the children of the world....

Red and Yellow black and White, they were all entertained in his sight....

So I was wondering how long it would take before i would have to find a doctor for Sawyer. Well today was the day. I searched and found a doctor. The doctor was alright, actually really good, and the doctors office looked alright once we got inside but it was all a little sketchy from the outside. Went to park that car and surrounded in my middest were natives looking for change on the ground, hanging out at a pay phone. I was a little nervous, but figured maybe this was my golden opportunity to use my Karate.

While inside, it was like little mini folklorama. Sawyer brought all the nations together for a pow wow. Literally. He jumped up and down and danced and sang for all the different people. Everyone laughed at him, read him books, and chanted...ON YOUR MARK, GET SET GO.....for him. He was thrilled. I was very proud of him and also learned from him that all those people in there, no matter what they were wearing, when the last time they bathed, and what colour their skin was, did not matter to him, as long as there was laughter. And the funnist part was.....HE was proud to point to me and let everyone know, that THIS was his mamma. God Bless that Child!!!!!

I'm It....You bet I am!!!!!

So I have been tagged by Crystal in the "second child rocks" blog. Well second children do rock. Which brings me to a little sadness in my life. As you all know, I have a bitter taste in my mouth about having more children because of my experience this past 1 1/2, not because of Sawyer of course...but lately, I have really been sad about the fact that I will not have anymore children. Sawyer is an amazing blessing from God. I would have always wanted to provide him with a sibling, but I probably won't, so my prayer for him is that all the friends and family in his life will be suffice, which it has been already. I can't express my love that I have for that little boy and thank the Lord everyday for the ONE opportunity that he gave me to become a mother and a mother to the best child in the world. Infact, he is the first, second, and the youngest. How much luckier can one boy be.


Anyway, on to the rules now....

G - Giggly. I love a good laugh.

W - Witty. Or so I think anyway. hahahaha

E - Energetic. Mr. Clean type energy

N - Neurotic. No comment

So with all this said, I would like to tag Denyse and Nathan. This is for October birthdays, which rock also, btw.

Good Bye

So here I stand, all alone,
Broken by the rule of change,
What it is I have right now,
Is everything that cant remain...

Untarnished by time's tyranny,
Just like the eye within the storm,
That writes its speechless poetry,
On paper that remains untorn.

The present slips beneath us,
Just like the hourglass of sand,
Exhaling the beginning,
Of a memorable end.

This ever changing cycle,
Finds itself upon a stone,
Bifurcates violently,
Just like a skeletal bone...

Like sand kisses the sea goodbye,
The mist betrays a tearful eye,
Like a falling leaf will be gone,
With loosened grip we will hold on.